18th of January.

 Assalamualaikum wbt,

it's the 18th of january 2021. 18 days of new year, 18 days of me trying to get a grip, get a hold of myself. i know everyone's under a difficult situation right now, we go through different things but we all are suffering. mentally and physically.

physically wore, mentally tired.

in another 6 days I will be having my final exams before entering the third semester. i am blessed because throughout this journey of me being an odl student, I have friends that helped me a lot, and i could always ask my lecturers regarding topics that i'm having difficult time with understanding them. my parents are always at home. i feel content even though we're all now staying at home. yes i wont deny, there are some time i felt useless, guilty for not being able to help with the house chores everyday. and actually my discipline has been destructed. I get sleepy easily, i'm on my phone a lot and i've been doing nothing a lot too..

so this year, 2021 i don't think i have any resolution. 

like there are things that i wanted to achieve, but.. i guess i'm going to focus on my well-being. i need to change myself first. i need to have some changes. i can't be --just like this--

to all of you out there, every year will get tougher.

every single day is a brand new day that you've never seen before. 

i ask you to stay safe and healthy.

inside and out.

:)